3rd April 08
... and my lump is getting bigger again, so chemo was cancelled today 
, and probably for the first time I am really quite scared.
My oncologist has transfered my care to Northampton, which is our regional centre, and I'll start on a different kind of treatment tomorrow afternoon.
I've been warned that this regime will be tougher than the last, and I kind of find that reassuring to be honest. I'm working on the idea that if I'm feeling bad, the cancer is feeling even worse.
My new motto today (borrowed from a book I'm reading) is,
I'm not a cancer sufferer (I've never suffered anything quietly 
), I'm a cancer FIGHTER!
Let the next battle begin. 
readmenow
I could never say i know how you feel, because i can't. But i admire the way that you think. If something like this ever happened to me, id like to imagine i could think the way that you do.
Take care,
Beki
xx